I’ve Become THAT Girl

You know the one…

That girl that is really athletic. That girl that LOVES exercise. That girl that bounces around excited about going to the gym, when you can’t wait to get home and plop on the couch? The one that makes you feel super guilty about neglecting yourself because you ‘just don’t have time’ or ‘too tired today’ to hit the gym?

I have always, 100%, bonafide hated exercise. I’m not super agile or have fast reflexes. I’m a bit of a slow processor, so playing sports was never my thing. Plus, a scarred ego from elementary school ‘not making any teams’ haunts me to this day. 

So when I tell you I’ve become the girl I used to hate, I have to pinch myself to believe it. But I have become that girl. 

An athlete.

The window opened on my birthday. A friend gave me a birthday card that read, “Happy Birthday to a great friend and an amazing athlete.” 

ATHLETE??? Me? I never gave myself that title. And no one ever gave it to me…until now.

I have been actively involved in Crossfit since November. It started as a few free classes with friends, and has evolved into a personal journey. A journey that have finally given me the assurance that I can be athletic. A journey I never thought I’d get to take.

Many people who have learned I do Crossfit have expressed interest in the sport, but anxiety about being able to do it. I hear words like “It’s too intense!” “I’m not fit enough!” “You have to be really athletic to do Crossfit.”

These are all BIG myths. (I started with not having exercised in almost two years.) And my body has changed so much- I have had more people tell me how good I look in the last month, than ever in my life. And I owe it all to my box (Crossfit gym). 🙂 I have fun. I’ve made friends. And never once have I felt less than what someone else can do-because everyone believes in each other. It’s a community. I feel good there. CF13S is home.

I find myself begging people to try it with me one day. 

So yes, I am THAT girl now. Who’s gonna join me?






Comfort Food

FYI: This took a month to write…sorry for infrequent posting.

Often times we think of comfort food as a food we fondly remember eating as a child or a special dish we religiously make for a holiday. Grandpa’s ‘German’ potato salad at amBBQ…drool.

Sometimes it’s a dish a loved one makes you when you’re sick with a cold.

Or maybe a hot meal you share with your love on a snowy night.

But what role should food play when you’re going through something sad? I’m not going to lie, it’s been a really rough time for me lately. And one of the few things that has given me a ‘little’ bit of happiness in a very dark place has been food.

I have managed to continue to eat healthy much through the holidays and into the winter. But in a sad time, sometimes you just need ‘a glass of coca cola.’ Or some mac and cheese. Or some chocolate.

So yes, I’ve taken ‘comfort’ in some foods that aren’t the best for me. And yes, the scale has reflected that. But it was needed. And appreciated. And calming. And distracting. But this week I’m ‘back in the saddle again.’ And surprisingly it has been pretty easy, and ‘comforting,’ to eat the healthy way again.

Regardless, we all deal with pain differently. However, it isn’t safe to continue that pattern. I’m glad my brain has been rewired to acknowledge the difference.

Bigger and better places… 🙂

Moving Forward- Open Doors in 2014!

So I’m sorry I never finished my cookie countdown- I simply ran out of time. And I actually had posted double recipes in some posts, so I wouldn’t have made it to 15 days anyway…

I like to call today “Limbo Day.” It’s a day where everyone looks back at the past, while at the same time make promises for the future. I personally think this is a dangerous thing to do.

I know that’s a bold statement, but hear me out.

When we make goals based on past experiences, we lock ourselves in to only changing what we already know about ourselves. We keep the doors closed to ‘the unknown’ and we turn our backs on all the possibilities that are out there for us.

One year later, I launched a photography business with my husband, lost 30 lbs, became a VP of my local, am now a cross fit enthusiast,  and a unit leader for my group of teachers…and I didn’t plan for ANY of it. I never made any resolutions last year, I just kept the doors open for change. And change I got!

I can only dream of all things that await me in 2014! As long as I keep the door open, good things will come.

So if there’s something you want for 2014- make one resolution:

Open the door for change. It may not be exactly what you were expecting, but it may be something better!!!

PS- New Year’s is totally hyped up anyway to sell gym memberships and diet programs. Don’t fall for it…

Thanks- Days 20 to 22

The past few days have brought many triumphs, both professionally and personally. I had a successful photo shoot, some positive feedback at work, and I completed today my final week of my diet challenge. So here are my thanks for the past few days:

Day 20- I am thankful for Crossfit entering my life. It scared me. I made fun of it. I don’t like saying the WOD. But Ima keep coming back. May be hooked…

Day 21- I am thankful for organizational skills. Its nice when it goes noticed…

Day 22- I am thankful for two things: my nutritionist and my will power. Together, I was able to loose 25 in 3 months!!!! I have never felt so good! I can’t believe I could do something like that!

Coca Cola et al.

Have you seen this commercial yet?

What do think about this?

Many people will find this as a company being responsible- without saying it outright, Coca Cola is basically saying Coke is major cause in obesity. And in some regards I could respect that- except that’s only half the problem. What they’re promoting instead are their “180” beverages that are low or no calorie. Because God-forbid Coca Cola looses money off this.

Do you think this is being responsible? On one side of the coin, they are finally admitting that their product does have high amounts of sugar in them and is a major contributor to obesity.

But Coca Cola has been around for 100 years….. why NOW is it part of the obesity problem? Why not 50 years ago? Even 20 years ago….

I got really mad when Mayor Bloomberg in NYC tried to ban super sized soda in the city. His intentions were good, but the approach was all wrong. Instead of just banning large sodas, why not use that money for education instead of lobbying?

Is the problem really the food?

I’m sure everyone saw the documentary “Supersize Me.” Or at least heard of it. If not here’s a link. After watching that, I vowed that fast food was the reason everyone was getting fat-including me-even though fast food was never really part of my diet to begin with. Growing up, fast food was a treat. It was something we had only when my mom was sick with a cold and couldn’t cook, on a road trip or at a birthday party (having your birthday party at McDonald’s in the 80s meant you were the coolest kid in the world BTW). Even when I got old enough to make and purchase food on my own, I never let fast food become the forefront of my diet.

And then I saw Fat Head. This documentary has the same idea as Supersize Me, but the goal was to debunk the notion that fast food companies are to blame for our obesity epidemic. And it did.

And there lies the problem:


Not that I’m letting fast food companies off the hook. They aren’t truthful with their nutrition facts, they lobby the FDA to design the food pyramid to boost consumption of corn and wheat to profit agribusiness, they pump up their serving sizes to make you eat more so you buy more…it’s bad. However, none of these companies tie you down and force the food in your mouth! And I’ll save the whole GMO debate for another time.

So even though I want to be mad a Coca Cola for putting out these healthy commercials- because NOTHING they produce is healthy- including their zero calorie drinks (another blog), I can’t be. They’re doing something responsible- they are educating people. And they really don’t have to.

Hello 15!

I considered it punishment when getting on the scale today.

After all…yesterday I was at an Ocktoberfest. I had a beer AND a small piece of pretzel. BLASPHEMY!

So when I saw the number, I thought I was dreaming. Especially since I’ve been teetering around the same place for two weeks it feels. I got on the scale again, and sure enough! I’m down 15 pounds!!!

Now, here’s why this is such a big deal:

1. I haven’t lost that much weight in a clip since 2007.

2. I promised myself I wouldn’t buy any fall clothes( and do I need them!) until I lost 15 lbs. 


So it looks like I’ll be doing a little shopping in a week or two!!! 

But I won’t be buying too much…because there’s more to loose!

Detox- Day 4

Happy Hump Day! I reached the half way point!

It was a great day…

As I literally clean the junk out of my body, I am making room for better things. Like I said a few days ago- ‘Make room for the things you want in life, not the things you have.’ Well, by loosing some of the junk this weekend, I’ve already made room for better things.

This blog. I had more readers today than I’ve ever had before.

My photography site is finally up and running! And my facebook page! It feels amazing!!! This is something I’ve wanted for years now, and with hard work today we got it done. It will feel so good to give a business card with an running website now! I am so looking forward to what lies ahead…

My will power is strong, and what seemed like an eternity, now seems not so bad. And I’ve gotten unexpected encouragement from some good people.

Feeling pretty awesome today…..

Detox Day 1

Here we are- the first day of the rest of our lives. Thus begins the detox.

So far so good.

I had a grapefruit for breakfast. Without a sweetener. And you know what? If you get past the bitter after taste, a grapefruit is actually quite sweet. I thoroughly enjoyed it!  Mushrooms steamed and then sautéed in a little balsamic vinegar fills you up! And hot water with lemon will replace the ‘coffee’ craving for 7 days.

I think that’s what I’m going to be saddest about not having this week- coffee. I don’t put any fancy creamers in it or anything. I just savor a cup of coffee each morning- watching the news, going on Facebook, driving to work listening to good music… Is it an addiction? Probably. But it’s something I indulge in once a day that really doesn’t hurt me like smoking or drinking or chocolate consumption. But I can deal for seven days.

At least I hope I can for seven days. Today I feel excited- like GAME ON BITCHES! I made a vegetable soup to eat for the next few days. I have kale chips slowly cooking in the oven to snack on. I have portabellas marinating in the fridge to grill for the BBQs I have this weekend. I can bake apples with cinnamon if I want something desserty. My attitude today is that this is a new challenge- much like the challenge of becoming gluten free.

But I’m scared. I’ve dieted my whole life and have had mixed results. Most of my issues lie with will power. And what a weekend to start something like this. Part of me wants to bail on the two BBQs I have, so I don’t have to be exposed to the temptation. But if I do that, I’d never be able to leave the house! Eventually there will be SOMETHING that will temp me…and I will have to learn to fight it off. Luckily, I have some of the best friends and family in the world. They support me so much!

So today it’s GAME ON.

In case you are wondering what diet I’m doing, here’s a link to the site. It’s run through a nutritionist friend of mine, and I’m part of a FInd Your Fit Contest that starts today and runs through Nov. 22nd. I don’t care if I win or not, I just like the competitive part of it! If this is something you’d like to do as well- you can still register! Just make sure to let me know, so I can put you in touch with my friend.

Planning is Everything

I had wheat this weekend.

I didn’t plan, and got stuck in a situation I could have planned for, but was busy and forgot.

I am sitting here itching my ass off as we speak.

I guess wheat really is the culprit. And I will plan better for the future.

A lesson was learned this weekend- I MUST think ahead every step of the way. And I should have some thing to munch on at all times just in case.