Helen

I firmly believe everything is an ebb and flow…much like the waves in the ocean. Good things wash ashore and give the beach the sacrifices of the ocean. I often wonder when I see a shell how far it traveled to get to shore. Miles? Yards? Feets?

 

So when you think of an ebb and flow, you must honor the fact there is good and bad. Positive and Negative.

I think I have been ebbing for quite sone time. Feeling pretty good about myself. Somewhat invincible. 

Today was the flow. Helen.

I feel defeated. Shaken. Disappointed in my body.

 

 

But instead of focusing on the negative, I will focus on the positive.

Today reaffirmed my choice in gyms.

Thank you Jenna for running the end with me. Thank you for helping me find my breathe. And thank you for not talking, so I didn’t cry.

Thank you Dan for running with me too until the end.

Thank you Tim for meeting me at the landing of the stairs.

And thank you to the whole class that stayed with me and counted with me and cheered me on. 

 

Even though I came in dead last.

 

I found my breath. I finished. 

 

Always finish what you started…

 

 

 

I’ve Become THAT Girl

You know the one…

That girl that is really athletic. That girl that LOVES exercise. That girl that bounces around excited about going to the gym, when you can’t wait to get home and plop on the couch? The one that makes you feel super guilty about neglecting yourself because you ‘just don’t have time’ or ‘too tired today’ to hit the gym?

I have always, 100%, bonafide hated exercise. I’m not super agile or have fast reflexes. I’m a bit of a slow processor, so playing sports was never my thing. Plus, a scarred ego from elementary school ‘not making any teams’ haunts me to this day. 

So when I tell you I’ve become the girl I used to hate, I have to pinch myself to believe it. But I have become that girl. 

An athlete.

The window opened on my birthday. A friend gave me a birthday card that read, “Happy Birthday to a great friend and an amazing athlete.” 

ATHLETE??? Me? I never gave myself that title. And no one ever gave it to me…until now.

I have been actively involved in Crossfit since November. It started as a few free classes with friends, and has evolved into a personal journey. A journey that have finally given me the assurance that I can be athletic. A journey I never thought I’d get to take.

Many people who have learned I do Crossfit have expressed interest in the sport, but anxiety about being able to do it. I hear words like “It’s too intense!” “I’m not fit enough!” “You have to be really athletic to do Crossfit.”

These are all BIG myths. (I started with not having exercised in almost two years.) And my body has changed so much- I have had more people tell me how good I look in the last month, than ever in my life. And I owe it all to my box (Crossfit gym). 🙂 I have fun. I’ve made friends. And never once have I felt less than what someone else can do-because everyone believes in each other. It’s a community. I feel good there. CF13S is home.

I find myself begging people to try it with me one day. 

So yes, I am THAT girl now. Who’s gonna join me?

 

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