FYI: This took a month to write…sorry for infrequent posting.
Often times we think of comfort food as a food we fondly remember eating as a child or a special dish we religiously make for a holiday. Grandpa’s ‘German’ potato salad at amBBQ…drool.
Sometimes it’s a dish a loved one makes you when you’re sick with a cold.
Or maybe a hot meal you share with your love on a snowy night.
But what role should food play when you’re going through something sad? I’m not going to lie, it’s been a really rough time for me lately. And one of the few things that has given me a ‘little’ bit of happiness in a very dark place has been food.
I have managed to continue to eat healthy much through the holidays and into the winter. But in a sad time, sometimes you just need ‘a glass of coca cola.’ Or some mac and cheese. Or some chocolate.
So yes, I’ve taken ‘comfort’ in some foods that aren’t the best for me. And yes, the scale has reflected that. But it was needed. And appreciated. And calming. And distracting. But this week I’m ‘back in the saddle again.’ And surprisingly it has been pretty easy, and ‘comforting,’ to eat the healthy way again.
Regardless, we all deal with pain differently. However, it isn’t safe to continue that pattern. I’m glad my brain has been rewired to acknowledge the difference.
Here we are- the first day of the rest of our lives. Thus begins the detox.
So far so good.
I had a grapefruit for breakfast. Without a sweetener. And you know what? If you get past the bitter after taste, a grapefruit is actually quite sweet. I thoroughly enjoyed it! Mushrooms steamed and then sautéed in a little balsamic vinegar fills you up! And hot water with lemon will replace the ‘coffee’ craving for 7 days.
I think that’s what I’m going to be saddest about not having this week- coffee. I don’t put any fancy creamers in it or anything. I just savor a cup of coffee each morning- watching the news, going on Facebook, driving to work listening to good music… Is it an addiction? Probably. But it’s something I indulge in once a day that really doesn’t hurt me like smoking or drinking or chocolate consumption. But I can deal for seven days.
At least I hope I can for seven days. Today I feel excited- like GAME ON BITCHES! I made a vegetable soup to eat for the next few days. I have kale chips slowly cooking in the oven to snack on. I have portabellas marinating in the fridge to grill for the BBQs I have this weekend. I can bake apples with cinnamon if I want something desserty. My attitude today is that this is a new challenge- much like the challenge of becoming gluten free.
But I’m scared. I’ve dieted my whole life and have had mixed results. Most of my issues lie with will power. And what a weekend to start something like this. Part of me wants to bail on the two BBQs I have, so I don’t have to be exposed to the temptation. But if I do that, I’d never be able to leave the house! Eventually there will be SOMETHING that will temp me…and I will have to learn to fight it off. Luckily, I have some of the best friends and family in the world. They support me so much!
So today it’s GAME ON.
In case you are wondering what diet I’m doing, here’s a link to the site. It’s run through a nutritionist friend of mine, and I’m part of a FInd Your Fit Contest that starts today and runs through Nov. 22nd. I don’t care if I win or not, I just like the competitive part of it! If this is something you’d like to do as well- you can still register! Just make sure to let me know, so I can put you in touch with my friend.